For a long time, I believed that if you knew what to do, you should be able to do it. Finding your way, one step at a time. I’ve spent years around horses — riding, grooming, coaching — and from the outside I probably looked capable and experienced. But there was a point where I realised I wasn’t making progress in my own competing. I told myself it was because of money, time, or circumstances. The truth was harder to admit. Underneath it all, I didn’t really believe I had th